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Friday, July 30, 2010
long overdue pix
Today the office is moving, so we're working from home. I actually had plans to skip work and enjoy today as my dearest BF is starting on his new job next week. But he got called back to some orientation yesterday and today.
So now im left alone, to work with a headache from sleeping too much, sorethroat and feels like a fever coming on.
Grrr.
Swensens on payday.
And on to Loyang Temple
My dad's working at this chicken rice stall at Yishun blk 800+
Look at how crisp the skin is
My lunch!
Remember to go and try it out!
i need a break from this routine of mine. HOLIDAY!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
My dearest BF has high cholesterol! And he's only 22 years old. LOL. Have to start limiting him to delicacies of sorts! Prawns, crabs, egg, NO NO NO~!
Yesterday after work, BF brought me to watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice. It was a nice show, but my tummy was in pain that caused me to be distracted throughout the show. =(
But the show is enjoyable. I think there might be a part 2 sequel to the show. =)
The Sorcerer. - Nicholas Cage
The Apprentice - Jay Baruchel
The Villian - Alfred Molina
The Sorceress - Monica Bellucci
(Photos credit - Yahoo! Movies)
I really wanted to watch Inception, but BF wanted to watch this show instead. oh well. next time!
Fang and I shopped online yesterday for shoes~ i bought 3 and she bought 2. hee. i think i am shopping too much! Ok, should stop shopping soon~ =P
Dinner with my babes this coming Thursday ~ =D
Monday, July 26, 2010
first things first, YAWNZ. cuz its Monday blues. every week should start on a Tuesday, den we'll get rid of Monday's blues. but wouldn't the blues be on Tuesday ?
i better go, boss is here, will update again soon!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Its Thursday again!!
Work seems to be going better, thanks to the crystals i believe and all the constant praying.
But i hope my good luck continues, although i know that its impossible to hit target this month.
I like the song from B.O.B - Airplanes. and its featuring Hayley Williams, making it a double 'like' =)
Please life, dont make fun of me anymore, go pick on someone else~ =P
Monday, July 19, 2010
I am super sleepy right now. Like SUPER. my eyes gonna close soon.
Saturday was again another boring day, staying home until i had to meet Steph at 8.30pm to head down to Butters.
It was Hong En's birthday.
And i was very unlucky that night.
We started off the night with Five-Tens the game, and i kept losing. Hong En didnt make things better for me by standing next to me.
I wasnt too good of a drinker, but i am able to hold down my silliness and drunkard-ness. I was dizzy, and felt like talking. But other then that, i dont think i have made a fool of myself too much.. hee.
And i dont know what's the occasion that night, but there was ALOT of weird people. They way they stared isnt like 'oh, u're cute, may i know you', its like 'oh. u are cute, i wanna kill you'
Damn scary ok.
Before the night ended we had this guy coming up to us, trying to get Steph's number. but failed and being a sore loser, just walked away. HAHA.
Left the place about 3am, and Steph managed to sneak into Rebel without ME. =(
Home sweet home, ZZZZ.
It wasnt a very good night cuz
1) the music wasnt very good.
2) alot of weird guys lingering around.
3) it was packed, almost like Sardine can. =/
4) Fang left early.
5) my feet hurt.
Another clubbing session any time soon??
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Sigh.
I dont even know how to start off this blog entry. cuz i have so freaking much to say, but not sure how to piece them together.
so, im not going to blog.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
so much to rant.
Not so sure if this is the right job for me afterall. Since this job actually requires LUCK (which i do not have)
I am always sian and pissed off during work. makes me stressed mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Its important to hold a job that makes you happy no matter how high or low the pay is. No?
I used to have the motivation. But its like, there's no point in working when there is no help from colleagues who are not doing their jobs right.
Im like working for nothing and the target on the board is laughing at me.
Of course i want lots of orders, but having orders with problem causes me headaches always.
GRRRRRR. IM SO FREAKING PISSED OFF.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Spain won. No much feeling cause im not a Holland fan much. But would really have wanted to see Germany VS Holland in the finals.
Oh well.
Now that's its all over, finally we can all get on with our lives and resume our very normal and boring routine of life.
Weekend was a bore. Felt that time was a drag.
Saturday was spent at home napping whole day and dinner at aunt's house. The place is different without Rainbow. i was bored like hell and my BF pissed me off. And there's no Rainbow to just be by my side as she usually would. Its just, lonely.
Was holding back my tears.
Sunday was another boring day. Went to the temple and quarrelled with BF. and den home and waste my time all the way til 8pm and dinner and home.
Super boring and super no life. -.-
Friday, July 9, 2010
my wounds were hurting the whole night causing me sleepless night. it didn't hurt very much unless i touch it, but it so happens that i'm a right sided sleeper. (and my wounds are on my right)Random : i HAVE TO stop biting my nails. look so ugly. its too short to even do any extensions. =/
Friday again. at last!
Boss is going out to see some people, and i cant wait because i really need to nap.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
oh yes,
There was also a rainbow otw home among the dark dark sky. Together with a very very beautiful sunset.
Bike skidded today. Rough day at work already, and i had to get into an accident. There's alot to thank for, but hey, i cant help feeling down okay.
Dearest BF came to fetch me after work, we went for dinner and den decided to head home. Saw my bff Fang in the lift as HongEn is otw to fetch her. As we left the building, Hong En reached.
At the next bend, we skidded. ( For the FIRST time in my life)
The whole situation happened so quickly, but for me, it felt like the whole world kinda slowed down. I could actually still recall the whole accident.
First i felt the back tyre slide to the left.
And then baby used the break (maybe slightly too hard)
His legs came down to try to get some balance.
My left leg tried to come down to help with the balancing.
And we skid right.
I felt my hips hit the ground.
and stuck out my right arm to break my fall.
My left hand was held high protecting my iPhone.
And suddenly i snapped back into reality.
I remember my dearest telling , 'are u ok, if u are ok, get up'
So weird.
But thank goodness that the car behind us was Fang and Hongen.
Our wounds are not that bad luh.. but it was the shock element to Fang that really scared her.
There's actually alot to thank for.
- Luckily that baby and i decided to have dinner nearby.
- Luckily that Hongen is fetching Fang
- Luckily they were just behind us
- Luckily that we were on the small road
- Luckily i wasnt holding my lappie
and lots more.
But the most important, THANK GOD THAT I WAS THERE WHEN IT HAPPENED.
i could not have imagine if baby had this accident alone while coming to fetch me.
Sigh, but after all, we were luckily to have escaped with superficial scratched and bruises.
Was just surfing the net and came across this Yahoo News about AngelaBaby. I wasn't very sure what's the big hoo-haa about her because to be honest, i have NEVER heard of her before.
So apparently, she is a HK artist who is damn chio, but was rumoured to have undergone plastic surgery.
Erm, she kinda looks like Dawn Yang. (AngelaBaby's surname is also Yang. are they related?) Either Dawn copied her or she copied Dawn.
But, who cares. I mean seriously. she's fucking chio, has her career, travel around the world, and i would be darn happy if i am half as successful as she is.
I would happily go under the knife to have her eyes.
But i'd have to be rich first.
oh well.
ANGRY. GERMANY LOST.
i didn't watch the match, but i know if i do, i'll be utterly disappointed with the Germans. what happened to the Germany Team that thrashed England and Argentina?
Sigh. BIG MASSIVE UBER DISAPPOINTMENT.
Anyway, yea you can see from my post that i am actually feeling better. Already accepted that Max has gone but i will always miss him.
Work hasn't been going on too smoothly. Target has been increased and today is almost the end of the 2nd week of July, i'm not so sure if i am able to actually hit half of my target =/
SIGH.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Its been 3 days since Max's passing.
I had a good cry on friday night. I cried so hard that my BF was so afraid and couldn't do anything but to watch. I've never cried like that before in my live. Not when i had to give Kula away, not when Rainbow passed, not when my family fell apart.
It was a really good cry, because when i woke up the next morning, i had no more tears to cry.
I still feel like crying, but no tears for me to cry it out.
I brought Max home on Saturday after going to see Rainbow at the colombarium. After bring Max home, i actually felt better, still missing him but, i know he's around.
Weekend was spent at my sister's BF's hse. Dinner on Saturday, and Lunch & Dinner the next day. My sis and I cooked for dinner yesterday. Took my mind off Max for a bit. I cooked the Soup, Vege and Rice.
Soup & Vege - pass
Rice fail. Supposedly the easiest to cook but still fail. Cause the rice has soaked in the water for a little too long. stupid mistake.
Anyway, i had fun cooking. I hope i have my own house soon, cause only den i will be able to cook.
Back to work.
Friday, July 2, 2010
theres so many words left unsaid, so many actions left undone.
now its too late, i can only blame myself.
god suck?
or
devil suck?
either way, life sucks.
im lost.
i dont know what to do.
it fucking hurts.
every minute im thinking about Max.
each time i go to the toilet, i cry w/o fail.
and i have to go back office pretending everything is fine.
each time my tears well up in my eyes, somebody talks to me.
i just do not have the mood to do anything else.
i want to rant.
i want to vent.
i want to die.
i finally am seeing some light in my life. started smiling and laughing. finally letting go of Rainbow. I am seeing some brightness in my life, finally accepting the death of Rainbow.
but life is too jealous that im having a good life.
has to make me go over the grieving process all over again. but i blame myself.
yesterday my dearest bf was sick. down with fever. but i threw a mini tantrum. i was wearing heels and had to bring my lappie home. so i wanted bf to come fetch me.
Max was alright when he left the house.
But when we got home at 8.15pm, we saw Max, covered in diarrhea, lethargy. dont even want to move.
straight away i rushed to Pets Lover Centre at Yishun, they said they couldnt do anything. So i rushed down to Mount Pleasant at Sembawang. Their vet went back. So i rushed to Mount Pleasant Hospital.
Drip is put up, started feeding oral glucose, gave some medications. and allow Max to rest. Max was a little bit more alert after the initial does of oral fluids. Able to lift its head up, and look at us. I had hope.
11.40pm : replied an email to US colleague.
11.45pm : recieved a very random SMS from a friend to becareful while riding.
11.50pm: recieved a call from Mt Pleasant, Max collapsed.they are trying to resus him. i prayed.
12.05pm : recieved another call from Mt Pleasant, Max passed away. I burst into tears.
I rushed down to accompany Max. He looks like he's just sleeping, w/o the breaths. I cleaned him up, and just sat there hugging Max. His ears were pale, instead of the usual pink.
We left the hospital around 2pm.
We spend around $500+ but still unable to exchange it for Max's life.
I hate myself.
i am angry. if i never asked baby to come fetch me, he would have watched max, and we wouldnt be home so late.
i really wanna vent my anger. why Max! i want to be sick instead of Max!
i really dont know what did i do wrongly. nothing has been changed with Max's diet. and Max is eating well and everything.
I already bought several things to build Max a second floor cage. I bought Max new brush.
im so pissed. im so fucked up.