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Monday, August 31, 2009
Sick
My tummy is sick. I have been feeling nausea for the whole day.
No appetite. Once i eat something, i feel like vomitting.
Random: when ur subconcious really misses something, will u hallucinate?
Is my memory yesterday real or fake?
No appetite. Once i eat something, i feel like vomitting.
Random: when ur subconcious really misses something, will u hallucinate?
Is my memory yesterday real or fake?
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Cycle of luck.
They say that luck is a continuous cycle between good and bad. A slight streak of good luck yesterday is making me sick. Literally.
Won mahjong and a bet with my uncle that Man Utd will win Arsenal yesterday. Woke up with headache and stomach discomfort. Ate pasta with bad prawn which is making me nausea now.
Saw a replica of Kula today. I stood stunned and cried on the spot. Sigh.
Working tomorrow. Pay will be in tomorrow. Finally.
Won mahjong and a bet with my uncle that Man Utd will win Arsenal yesterday. Woke up with headache and stomach discomfort. Ate pasta with bad prawn which is making me nausea now.
Saw a replica of Kula today. I stood stunned and cried on the spot. Sigh.
Working tomorrow. Pay will be in tomorrow. Finally.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Sneaky...
A cat has been sneaking a nap on my bike.... The scratches on the seats is evidence.
But, its okay.. =)
According to MOM - An employee is to work a maximum of 44 hours per week with extra hours counted as overtime. Overtime pay should be paid no less than 1.5 times the basic hourly salary.
Hmm.. Mine is like 1.02 times my basic hourly salary. How could they?
But, its okay.. =)
According to MOM - An employee is to work a maximum of 44 hours per week with extra hours counted as overtime. Overtime pay should be paid no less than 1.5 times the basic hourly salary.
Hmm.. Mine is like 1.02 times my basic hourly salary. How could they?
Friday, August 28, 2009
Recruitment
im in a dilema AGAIN.
Jet star intl (sin based) is recruiting! But their basic pay is very little.. =(
HOW?!?!
Jet star intl (sin based) is recruiting! But their basic pay is very little.. =(
HOW?!?!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Lunch at NEBO.
Im having lunch with my colleague at Nebo.. And she desperately wants to sit on the bubble chair. -.-
Its a thursday!! Finally...
Counting down to payday : 4 more days. =)
Its a thursday!! Finally...
Counting down to payday : 4 more days. =)
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Unnecessary spending.
I'll be spending extra 70bucks this month if my appeal is not successful.. Wish me luck. :(
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Disappointment
Have i ever mentioned how much i hate the feeling of disappointment? No matter who is the one that has disappointed me, but i just hate it.
Maybe she was getting her revenge? A tit for a tat huh. Well, i give up. Im just going to work for what im being paid and just ignore everything else.
But baby did not disappoint me today. As soon as he noted that i was having quite a bad mood, he brought me to east coast for dinner by the beach. I really appreciated that. Lifted my mood, made me feel alot better.
Now if he was this caring everyday.. :P
Ok, off to sleep. Working tomorrow again. Sigh. Just watched Silk on SCV Chn 62. Its a horror show.. Now im having trouble sleeping. Yikes!
Nites all. Sweet dreams.
Maybe she was getting her revenge? A tit for a tat huh. Well, i give up. Im just going to work for what im being paid and just ignore everything else.
But baby did not disappoint me today. As soon as he noted that i was having quite a bad mood, he brought me to east coast for dinner by the beach. I really appreciated that. Lifted my mood, made me feel alot better.
Now if he was this caring everyday.. :P
Ok, off to sleep. Working tomorrow again. Sigh. Just watched Silk on SCV Chn 62. Its a horror show.. Now im having trouble sleeping. Yikes!
Nites all. Sweet dreams.
Eye Bags
My eye bags are getting darker and darker because of the early rising from my bed. :(
One problem after another. When can i be free from trouble? I feel like im a prisoner of woe.
SIGH.
One problem after another. When can i be free from trouble? I feel like im a prisoner of woe.
SIGH.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
As usual.
I was suppose to wake up at 6.40am this morning to attend the nursing symposium at MAH. But as usual, i couldnt get up. HEHE.
Spent the day with a headache and drenched in rain (again).
There goes my Sunday. SIGH.
Spent the day with a headache and drenched in rain (again).
There goes my Sunday. SIGH.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
There's a first in everything.
Attending my first nursing symposium tomorrow. Getting my first cmp (or smth like that) point.
I remember all the firsts in my life as of Pri 3.. Before Primary 3, i could only remember a few significant episodes of my life.
There's the first time im going to school on my own with public transport in Pri 3. (9 y/o)
Also the first time getting a boyfriend in Pri 6. (12 y/o)
The first time i got heartbroken in Sec 2.(14 y/o)
And the first time i was popular in school in Sec 3. (15 y/o)
My first real love in 16 y/o.
The first clubbing experience when i was 17 y/o.
My first job in 18 years of age.
And today, marks the first day i am a Nurse.
Proud to be one. and looking forward to my new future.
Random : Im blogging too much.
I remember all the firsts in my life as of Pri 3.. Before Primary 3, i could only remember a few significant episodes of my life.
There's the first time im going to school on my own with public transport in Pri 3. (9 y/o)
Also the first time getting a boyfriend in Pri 6. (12 y/o)
The first time i got heartbroken in Sec 2.(14 y/o)
And the first time i was popular in school in Sec 3. (15 y/o)
My first real love in 16 y/o.
The first clubbing experience when i was 17 y/o.
My first job in 18 years of age.
And today, marks the first day i am a Nurse.
Proud to be one. and looking forward to my new future.
Random : Im blogging too much.
One More Try
Baby, you're left with one last try,
This is the last time you make me cry.
Baby you're given one last chance,
One more mistake and we're done.
Baby no matter how much i love you,
I wont tolerate being treated like a fool.
Baby this will be the last time,
After this i may not be so kind.
U're forgiven, but this is the last time.
But dont think that ur sweet nothings can fool me again.
Your promised will not be trusted so easily anymore.
This is the last time you make me cry.
Baby you're given one last chance,
One more mistake and we're done.
Baby no matter how much i love you,
I wont tolerate being treated like a fool.
Baby this will be the last time,
After this i may not be so kind.
U're forgiven, but this is the last time.
But dont think that ur sweet nothings can fool me again.
Your promised will not be trusted so easily anymore.
Thing might have been different.
What if i've never accepted u on 17th Sept 06? Woulf things be different? Would i be more happy? Of would i be lonely? But one thing for sure is that i wouldnt be having this kind of feeling, this kind of heart ache, and disappointment.
They say, money is the root of all evil. I say, love is the root of all evil. It creates conflict, lust, anger, hate, and regrets.
Im not saying that im regretting my decision in 2006. But i believe things would be different if i took a step back and slow things down. We were too young and naive. Co-habiting together when i was 19 years? What was i thinking? Love isnt blind. Love has caused me to be blind.
Our honeymoon period was long over. But i was in denial. I kept forcing things and hence causing so much trouble. Trouble for u and myself.
What's my decision?
I dunno.
What's yours?
They say, money is the root of all evil. I say, love is the root of all evil. It creates conflict, lust, anger, hate, and regrets.
Im not saying that im regretting my decision in 2006. But i believe things would be different if i took a step back and slow things down. We were too young and naive. Co-habiting together when i was 19 years? What was i thinking? Love isnt blind. Love has caused me to be blind.
Our honeymoon period was long over. But i was in denial. I kept forcing things and hence causing so much trouble. Trouble for u and myself.
What's my decision?
I dunno.
What's yours?
Friday, August 21, 2009
What am i?
Am i your toy? Or am i just another somebody to you? Coming four years, u are treating me more badly compared to before. Is the past all but a pretense? Or was it a dream that never happened? So many questions but all with no answers. I lie awake thinking and crying. Crying about our sweet life. Crying over our bitter present. Is it worth crying? I find myself asking over and over. Would i be better without you? Would my heart ache less? I find no answers.
Why would i even allow myself to go thru all of this? Why am i so weak emotionally? I used to be strong. I used to be independent. I used to be happy. But what am i now?
I feel so pathetic. Being treated in such insulting way and i didnt even do anything. I feel ashamed. And to think that the person closest to me, the person i love the most would be the one thats hurting me the most.
'Why are u crying?'
You tell me.
Why would i even allow myself to go thru all of this? Why am i so weak emotionally? I used to be strong. I used to be independent. I used to be happy. But what am i now?
I feel so pathetic. Being treated in such insulting way and i didnt even do anything. I feel ashamed. And to think that the person closest to me, the person i love the most would be the one thats hurting me the most.
'Why are u crying?'
You tell me.
Bad Mood
Mood is down and grumpy.
Colleague's intolerable attitude.
Boyfriend's intolerable lack of care.
A long day from work.
Sucky home food after a long day of work.
Hungry from eating sucky home food.
Sleepiness.
Anger.
Frustration.
Bankruptcy.
Colleague's intolerable attitude.
Boyfriend's intolerable lack of care.
A long day from work.
Sucky home food after a long day of work.
Hungry from eating sucky home food.
Sleepiness.
Anger.
Frustration.
Bankruptcy.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
DSLR
Im currently looking for a DSLR. Either Canon or Nikon. But duno which is better.. If anyone have any opinions, please advise me! Or anyone selling?? =P
I was suppose to be blogging more. But something else caught my attention which dampened my mood. So i will just stop here with a last line.
What will i do if he is cheating on me.?
I was suppose to be blogging more. But something else caught my attention which dampened my mood. So i will just stop here with a last line.
What will i do if he is cheating on me.?
Where Got Ghost?
Went to watch this new flick by Jack Neo :
Where Got Ghost?
Not a very 'horror' show.. But with Jack Neo as the director, you can expect alot of laughing. It does have quite a few scares with the sound effect, but overall, fright rate is 1/5.
It is based to 3 short movies that has a good intention.
-The first movie is based on : Dont cheat, dont steal and dont be ungrateful.
This short film is slightly boring and the humour gets a bit stale after awhile.. Bear with this one and hang on for the second short film.
-The second movie is based on : Dont take any short cuts in life without expecting consequences.
This one involves one of the more realistic ghost out of the whole show. Warning for a few shocks and alot of laughs. The whole cinema burst into laughters in this short film. Men undergoing NS in Tekong is not advised to watch if they have a timid heart.
-The third movie is based on : Filial piety. Your parents may not give you what you want, but they will always look out for you.
This is a short continuation from Jack Neo's 'Money Not Enough Too'. There is one to two scenes where there's a shock, and a few times i got goosebumps. But mainly touching. And again, expect alot of laughing.
Stay til the reel is finished, because the NGs at the end of the movie is HILARIOUS. Note 'Hui-Ge's' NG is the car scene. Priceless.
Overall - 3.8/5 rating is given. It does have some moments where you will get a bit bored. So just catch it when you have free time!
Yawns. A long day tomorrow. Glad i was able to just relax. Pay's coming soon! =P
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Boyfriend
Why God didnt make boyfriends a mind reader. I guess many girls actually face the same thing with their boyfriends. But what can i do?! Im a proud woman. I dont tell Boyfriend what i want. I want him to KNOW what i want.
What i want is simple, its him. I want my boyfriend to be with me. And this he doesnt know.
I need a mind reader boyfriend. Anyone?
What i want is simple, its him. I want my boyfriend to be with me. And this he doesnt know.
I need a mind reader boyfriend. Anyone?
Happy 3 years and 11 month.
Baby, i love you.
And no matter what i will always love you.
Our happiness.
Our joy.
Our blessing.
Sometimes i turn my head away.
But i'll never turn my heart away.
Therefore, believe in me when i say.
You'll never be alone.
I love you.
Sometimes i turn my head away.
But i'll never turn my heart away.
Therefore, believe in me when i say.
You'll never be alone.
I love you.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Photos.
Please pardon the poor quality. These photos are from my E63. Im having some problems with my camera's memory stick. Somehow my computer just refuses to read my Sony memory stick! =( There's TONS of photos yet to be upload which i badly wanna share.. So anyway, just bear with these..
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Camwhore.
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Baby n i.
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Baby n i too.
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Sunset on the highway.
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I know. 5 photos? Pathetic right? =(
Sunset from the seas.
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Camwhore..jpg)
Baby n i..jpg)
Baby n i too..jpg)
Sunset on the highway..jpg)
I know. 5 photos? Pathetic right? =(
Sundays
My only off day. And yet? Home all day with a headache and tv. Im not staying home because of my headache. But staying home is causing me to have a headache.
SIGH.
SIGH.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
exhaustion
im so tired.. sleepy and having a headache. work today is a bitch. literally. my colleague is venting her frustrations on me. im sick of it. she's resigning soon. cross my fingers. =X
had some problems with starhub bills and am very disappointed with their serivces. u see, i was promised by starhub personnel of something they werent even sure of. it caused so much trouble and inconvenience to me and baby.. after my current contract ends, i wont be signing on with starthub anymore.
today i met one of my AES schoolmate. its has been like 6 years since i last saw her? and she could even remember my name! haha.. it actually made me miss AES classmates.. but due to work, im having so much trouble finding time to catch up.. =(
had some problems with starhub bills and am very disappointed with their serivces. u see, i was promised by starhub personnel of something they werent even sure of. it caused so much trouble and inconvenience to me and baby.. after my current contract ends, i wont be signing on with starthub anymore.
today i met one of my AES schoolmate. its has been like 6 years since i last saw her? and she could even remember my name! haha.. it actually made me miss AES classmates.. but due to work, im having so much trouble finding time to catch up.. =(
Friday, August 14, 2009
im sure she has a good reason.
Mediacorp called my clinic yesterday. They are shooting a new drama series with a scene where Pan Ling Ling will be visiting her gynae. They wanna borrow the place for the shoot. It will be for a few days for a few hours each day. So i asked boss.
She said no.
??????? Free publicity, free sneak peak of the new drama, able to see stars and producers. WHY NOT?
Yes, im sure she has her own reason. A very good one.
Anyway, its Friday again! time is flying, its so quick that its already halfway into the month! It also means that im getting my pay soon again!!! Yeah! Im starting to count down.. hehe...
Mediacorp called my clinic yesterday. They are shooting a new drama series with a scene where Pan Ling Ling will be visiting her gynae. They wanna borrow the place for the shoot. It will be for a few days for a few hours each day. So i asked boss.
She said no.
??????? Free publicity, free sneak peak of the new drama, able to see stars and producers. WHY NOT?
Yes, im sure she has her own reason. A very good one.
Anyway, its Friday again! time is flying, its so quick that its already halfway into the month! It also means that im getting my pay soon again!!! Yeah! Im starting to count down.. hehe...
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
decisions are very difficult.
i've finally registered myself as a Staff Nurse with SNB. finally. thanks to my aunt who sponsored me.. hehe..
so much to rant, but i decided to let it go. ranting does no good for me. aft ranting, i still have negative feelings in my heart.
nothing much this few days... currently on a job hunt, AGAIN.
im thinking sales rep? nurse? clinic asst? guest relations?
sigh, i so do not hav a goal in life. i dont even know what i really want to do!
i've finally registered myself as a Staff Nurse with SNB. finally. thanks to my aunt who sponsored me.. hehe..
so much to rant, but i decided to let it go. ranting does no good for me. aft ranting, i still have negative feelings in my heart.
nothing much this few days... currently on a job hunt, AGAIN.
im thinking sales rep? nurse? clinic asst? guest relations?
sigh, i so do not hav a goal in life. i dont even know what i really want to do!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
coincidence?
Today i was at my aunt's house for dinner and i saw a book of Feng Shui - Horoscope of Ox year 2009. And in it, it has the general as well as monthly luck 'report'. Under the monthly luck report, it also has luck '4D' number.
For this month, 7/8/09 to 6/9/09, my lucky number is 8152.
On the 8/8/09, 8152 came out FIRST price.
hmmmm........................
Today i was at my aunt's house for dinner and i saw a book of Feng Shui - Horoscope of Ox year 2009. And in it, it has the general as well as monthly luck 'report'. Under the monthly luck report, it also has luck '4D' number.
For this month, 7/8/09 to 6/9/09, my lucky number is 8152.
On the 8/8/09, 8152 came out FIRST price.
hmmmm........................
im balding.
and i blame it on riding with helmet. but can i ride without helmet? no. sighs. to see the countless strand of hair i drop everyday seriously scares me... hmm.. should i seek treatment?
fishing is a sport for sinners. because u kill the fish with your own bare hands. efforts for fishing competition did not go wasted cuz we caught 2 fishes. not small, yet not big. edible size for the whole family.. uncle and aunt came to support us.. happy =)
went to the temple and prayed for blessings and enlightenment.
look at this :
Lot 25. - One is trouble and encountered many difficulties. Much effort is put in but little is gained. What is lost could not be recovered.
SO TRUE. i mean it totally applies to my current condition. at least i know that no matter what i do, God is watching. and i do not mean for just buddhism. also christianity, catholics etc. GOD IS ALWAYS WATCHING AND HE IS ALWAYS FAIR.
*i sound so christian. no offence, but im not christian.
anyway, happy birthday to singapore.
singapore's birthday but how many people is actually wearing Red and white today? hmmm....
and i blame it on riding with helmet. but can i ride without helmet? no. sighs. to see the countless strand of hair i drop everyday seriously scares me... hmm.. should i seek treatment?
fishing is a sport for sinners. because u kill the fish with your own bare hands. efforts for fishing competition did not go wasted cuz we caught 2 fishes. not small, yet not big. edible size for the whole family.. uncle and aunt came to support us.. happy =)
went to the temple and prayed for blessings and enlightenment.
look at this :
Lot 25. - One is trouble and encountered many difficulties. Much effort is put in but little is gained. What is lost could not be recovered.
SO TRUE. i mean it totally applies to my current condition. at least i know that no matter what i do, God is watching. and i do not mean for just buddhism. also christianity, catholics etc. GOD IS ALWAYS WATCHING AND HE IS ALWAYS FAIR.
*i sound so christian. no offence, but im not christian.
anyway, happy birthday to singapore.
singapore's birthday but how many people is actually wearing Red and white today? hmmm....
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
miss senior ops came.
and now my mind is in a whirl. should i accept their offer? its so tempting.. but can i really stand my boss's working style? hmmmm....
random, national day is coming.. everyone is putting out their flags, but do they really love singapore? all the littering, all the inconsiderate act.. maybe its the ugly things that makes us Singaporean... hmmmm....
and now my mind is in a whirl. should i accept their offer? its so tempting.. but can i really stand my boss's working style? hmmmm....
random, national day is coming.. everyone is putting out their flags, but do they really love singapore? all the littering, all the inconsiderate act.. maybe its the ugly things that makes us Singaporean... hmmmm....
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
i resisted the temptation to shop.
my pay is IN! well, that was a few days ago.. but now im left with a mere 100bucks. =( so, i gritted my teeth when i was at J8 bishan today... saw a bag and i was like struggling to get away from it.. baby wasnt helping as he kept nudging me to buy it cuz it'll make me happy.. if i really did buy it, i would have regretted and chided myself for it.. hehe...
BUT i didnt buy it.. though my mind is still shopping, im proud i didnt spend money on shopping today~
anyway, im dreading to go to work tomorrow. alot of phone calls to make tomorrow. NOT lookin forward to it. SIGH.
my pay is IN! well, that was a few days ago.. but now im left with a mere 100bucks. =( so, i gritted my teeth when i was at J8 bishan today... saw a bag and i was like struggling to get away from it.. baby wasnt helping as he kept nudging me to buy it cuz it'll make me happy.. if i really did buy it, i would have regretted and chided myself for it.. hehe...
BUT i didnt buy it.. though my mind is still shopping, im proud i didnt spend money on shopping today~
anyway, im dreading to go to work tomorrow. alot of phone calls to make tomorrow. NOT lookin forward to it. SIGH.
Monday, August 3, 2009
a few days after thinking it through, i've decided. Also with the advise from my uncle and my sister, i have finally made my decision.
I had an offer to help out with Uncle Gary for the camps in august, nov, and dec. the pay is not too great but the experience is priceless. I've been having a war in my brain trying to decide if i should go.
1) if i go, i would gain exp but may suffer financially.
2) if i dont go, i would have to make another decision with is whether to leave my current job or not.
so i've decided with choice number 2.
now, should i resign from my job?
i like the enviroment here and the job scope. but i do not love my boss. i mean there's no communication between me n her. and i feel that after my colleague leave, she might just hold me by the neck or leave me to rot.
After much much much consideration, i've decided to leave by the end of the month. So wish me good luck and hope that i will be able to survive.
Had fun last saturday. Went for dinner at aunt's place as usual and left early with Phoenix and Rainbow for night cycling at EastCoast. =) My sis + her bf also came along..
Cycled from EastCoast to Tampines. Our initial destination was Changi village. but we lost our way, ended up in tampines. Went to mac for supper. had a bit of trouble cuz many places doesnt allow pets. Headed to Pasir Ris Pond to take a look at the fishing style there.. and went to changi village to buy some fishing equipment. and after that went back to east coast. the journey back is LOOOOONNG... we're already darn tired and there was some OSIM TRIATHOLON thing going on. we could on cycle on the PAEDASTRIAN path. So many people on sunday morning, we're already out of energy and we have to fight for space to cycle back. SO ANGRY. stupid triatholon. NEVER PLAN PROPERLY. please lah, A SUNDAY? where there'll be alot of people, family, children, all struggling to cycle on a path with so many people walking. STUPID. we even had to push the bike through SAND which is so darn difficult! URG! irritated to the MAX.
went back to aunt's hse to return phoenix n rainbow, bathed and i just fell on the couch, dozed off right away. Hhehehe.. had dinner at aunt's place before going home.
Reached home late and konked off immediately.
Im in need of a new job. PLEASE let me know if anyone has anything? im flexible =)
I had an offer to help out with Uncle Gary for the camps in august, nov, and dec. the pay is not too great but the experience is priceless. I've been having a war in my brain trying to decide if i should go.
1) if i go, i would gain exp but may suffer financially.
2) if i dont go, i would have to make another decision with is whether to leave my current job or not.
so i've decided with choice number 2.
now, should i resign from my job?
i like the enviroment here and the job scope. but i do not love my boss. i mean there's no communication between me n her. and i feel that after my colleague leave, she might just hold me by the neck or leave me to rot.
After much much much consideration, i've decided to leave by the end of the month. So wish me good luck and hope that i will be able to survive.
Had fun last saturday. Went for dinner at aunt's place as usual and left early with Phoenix and Rainbow for night cycling at EastCoast. =) My sis + her bf also came along..
Cycled from EastCoast to Tampines. Our initial destination was Changi village. but we lost our way, ended up in tampines. Went to mac for supper. had a bit of trouble cuz many places doesnt allow pets. Headed to Pasir Ris Pond to take a look at the fishing style there.. and went to changi village to buy some fishing equipment. and after that went back to east coast. the journey back is LOOOOONNG... we're already darn tired and there was some OSIM TRIATHOLON thing going on. we could on cycle on the PAEDASTRIAN path. So many people on sunday morning, we're already out of energy and we have to fight for space to cycle back. SO ANGRY. stupid triatholon. NEVER PLAN PROPERLY. please lah, A SUNDAY? where there'll be alot of people, family, children, all struggling to cycle on a path with so many people walking. STUPID. we even had to push the bike through SAND which is so darn difficult! URG! irritated to the MAX.
went back to aunt's hse to return phoenix n rainbow, bathed and i just fell on the couch, dozed off right away. Hhehehe.. had dinner at aunt's place before going home.
Reached home late and konked off immediately.
Im in need of a new job. PLEASE let me know if anyone has anything? im flexible =)