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Saturday, April 17, 2010
4 yeArs and 7 months today. Started off with a fight last night.
I was watching Monsters and Alien he VCD, couldn't find he second disc. Am already very fed up with myself. So I called my boyfriend to ask where he is. He says he's coming back in 10minutes.
10minutes latEr, he's not back.. Getting even more annoyed , still couldn't find the stupid disc.
20minutes later, still not back. I call him again, no answer.. Call again, no answer. Call again he says he's in the lift. So I continue to disturb him, call another 2 calls while he's walking into the house.
Back at home I told him I cannot find the disc. He tells me to us my brains and think where did I put it. I've already search everywhere before he came back!
He shouts at me 'den u call me so many times for what!?'
last time I could give a hundred missed call, he won't get annoyed. Now just 5 calls and he shouts at me?
I'm irritating, he says.
Went to sleep with swollen eyes and blocked nose. I feel angry. I feel heart broken. He ask me 'cry for wad' I said, cry for the fact that u don't love me as much as u do in the past.
He kept quite. Throughout our argument, he didn't say 'i love you'. He said sorry but I know he didn't mean it.
Makes me think how much he loves me now.
Woke up with a scary dream. Dreamt that he is ignoring me, and in touch with his ex again.
Sigh.
I hate myself for loving him so much.
I was watching Monsters and Alien he VCD, couldn't find he second disc. Am already very fed up with myself. So I called my boyfriend to ask where he is. He says he's coming back in 10minutes.
10minutes latEr, he's not back.. Getting even more annoyed , still couldn't find the stupid disc.
20minutes later, still not back. I call him again, no answer.. Call again, no answer. Call again he says he's in the lift. So I continue to disturb him, call another 2 calls while he's walking into the house.
Back at home I told him I cannot find the disc. He tells me to us my brains and think where did I put it. I've already search everywhere before he came back!
He shouts at me 'den u call me so many times for what!?'
last time I could give a hundred missed call, he won't get annoyed. Now just 5 calls and he shouts at me?
I'm irritating, he says.
Went to sleep with swollen eyes and blocked nose. I feel angry. I feel heart broken. He ask me 'cry for wad' I said, cry for the fact that u don't love me as much as u do in the past.
He kept quite. Throughout our argument, he didn't say 'i love you'. He said sorry but I know he didn't mean it.
Makes me think how much he loves me now.
Woke up with a scary dream. Dreamt that he is ignoring me, and in touch with his ex again.
Sigh.
I hate myself for loving him so much.