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Saturday, June 6, 2009
Troubled
Im in a very confused and frustrated state. and i cant stand it. Its too much to handle n i need help.
Here's the thing, i've already finished my attachment and am on holiday. Its something like i already graduated so im in search of a job. So i went online to search for stewarding jobs in airline and found that only Qatar airline is recruiting. I am torn apart between 2 options,
1) go for it, and if i get in, i have to leave my baby n family here for doha for 2 years.
2) skip it and forgot my dream and the money.
my heart is in 2 places, i really want to go and experience that kinda life. flying around, staying in doha. but my heart cannot bear to leave my baby, cannot bear to think that our feelings may dirft apart.
sigh. im really confused. i've been thinking about this matter for the past 2 days. not sleeping well, not eating well, even treating baby like shit becuz i feel like he is pulling me down. but i know its not his fault.
can anyone give some advice?
p/s: on the lighter note, be ready for a massive update and picture galore. =)
Im in a very confused and frustrated state. and i cant stand it. Its too much to handle n i need help.
Here's the thing, i've already finished my attachment and am on holiday. Its something like i already graduated so im in search of a job. So i went online to search for stewarding jobs in airline and found that only Qatar airline is recruiting. I am torn apart between 2 options,
1) go for it, and if i get in, i have to leave my baby n family here for doha for 2 years.
2) skip it and forgot my dream and the money.
my heart is in 2 places, i really want to go and experience that kinda life. flying around, staying in doha. but my heart cannot bear to leave my baby, cannot bear to think that our feelings may dirft apart.
sigh. im really confused. i've been thinking about this matter for the past 2 days. not sleeping well, not eating well, even treating baby like shit becuz i feel like he is pulling me down. but i know its not his fault.
can anyone give some advice?
p/s: on the lighter note, be ready for a massive update and picture galore. =)
scrumpdump <3
6th June, 11.11pm